nosedives.

no words could make this ditch deeper
the ambling idiot
awake and asleep here
might have misjudged this
(the humorless banter)
this calf to the slaughter
all of a father's
love for his daughter
he stumbled into
accidentally stepped on
forgive him
your graciousness
he knows not he falters
his blind eyes all open
his flame all retarded
hope for forgiveness
hope to climb out tomorrow
numb and frozen hands
the sun finally on them.

something i forgot.

fend off patience
to coerce distress
demand the excess
if all this
clouded impetus
makes it useless
then it's not worth it.

capsized contracts
this won't come back
this won't come back.

wish for another
heart attack
an earthquake to swallow the lack.

for you.

eyes spend moments engaged
in a small man's thoughts
a small man's maze
but could he raise his voice
for just one moment
loud enough for all of you to hear
he'd say thank you,
in my heart you are all dear.

empty hands.

excuses,
excuses.
for actions,
for actions.

while the only thing right
were all the reasons
this never should have happened.

the cripple speaks.

i walk down streets
see the reaction to my hobble,
ppls eyes confused
or judgemental.
every time
just more realised
how good a heart must be
to really love me.

four days before tomorrow.

some voice in my ear
some seraph.
some catalyst.
shining like aluminium.
polished,
no ableism.

havoc all unsettled
winds right for vessels
to sail to western castles.

perfect things.

are just like water
you wrap your hands around
and only end up
with wet skin.

but every once
in that great while
you bring a bucket
to keep it all in.

honest things.

constant state of inebreation
fingers stained and stinking
discs wounded or melting
yet still finds strength
to be someone
to be something.

(love cannot fix the world)
(but it will never lie)

the kyoto treaty.

legs all broken.
if i could only think of something
some great anamoly
that made this happen...
if i only had one excuse,
or even one reason..